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I'm going to write more here. Be a bit more vulnerable and open I guess. This is supposed to be a personal blog ofc.

It's been a rough couple years, I feel like just now I'm only getting back on my feet. But I'm feeling lost. I feel directionless, mostly because I feel torn between opposing sides.

I've said before that I flip between wanting to live in a cabin in the woods, away from everything, and in the middle of a city. The pull of those opposing things just....keeps me in a state of inaction.

Even though it's late in the year, I'm still going to list my goals. Trying to really concrete some sort of plan that gives me an option to pick the cabin or the city.

1. Build my business back up. Stalkers and blackmail ruined it. And I'm only just now getting back on track.
2. Learn enough Japanese to be as literate as a kindergartener.
3. Fix the house, and have enough saved investment income to pay for my base bills.
4. Get back down to a healthier weight.

I've actually been pretty on these goals this year, which I'm happy about. A lot of them are just recovery goals, but that's okay. Being back to where I was is good enough for today.